Conversely, write about something that’s kicking ass right now.
You know, writing this blog has been an accomplishment for me. It’s already day 27, and I am almost done with the challenge. I was more inspired on some days compared to others, but that’s okay. What matters to me is that I stuck with it, and faithfully wrote something daily. No matter how small a task is, it’s so important to finish it. It gives a great satisfaction knowing that it has been completed.
It has been a journey for me. I have learned things about myself because I was forced to write about it. It’s as if my thoughts had been floating about in a blurry mass in my mind, and by expressing them, they became sharply focused. I dealt with emotions as well, feelings that had been buried deep and that had not seen the light of day in a while. When I wrote Day 11, I cried. The emotions were so strong that I was trembling. I felt sick. It was really hard, but I know it’s part of the grieving process. If I don’t allow myself to express the disappointment and anger, then I am denying the fact that those experiences have shaped me into the person that I am today. I know I am stronger because of them. I know I am more empathetic towards others because I know how it feels. I know something beautiful can come out of the worst and darkest circumstances.
I am also happy that I have gotten this far in the blog because I enjoy writing. It had been awhile since I had thrown myself into a hobby, and I was looking for a project to do. I used to draw when I was younger, so I had the idea to buy a drawing tablet that can be plugged into a laptop. I found a small one online, and the comments said that the size was not a problem. It was such a flop! I couldn’t draw anything nice. Everything was so ugly, it was sad really. I thought that it might have been due to the fact that I hadn’t drawn in years and that I needed practice. But then my brother and my mom tried it out as well (they’re great at drawing), and their sketches weren’t that much better. So I returned that tablet, ready for a new project. Shortly after, I had the idea to create my own blog. I really appreciate every person that has taken the time to read it. It has been encouraging to read your comments. I have ideas for what to do next after this challenge finishes, so please stay tuned!